We are all created to make our own decisions whether to allow or not ourselves to experience loneliness, anger and despair.
I have always easily pondered on my pain (physical and emotional). I am human so I will always regress but I also know the truth- that I am important, you are important. Even though I do not know any of you who visit these boards, I love you and want you to know that your life, your existence is very important. I have struggled with losing family, people I knew in nursing homes and through documentaries of those in Hospice. You may not know or believe that we are all linked and my purpose in this life is to love and give of my heart for as long as God allows my humanly body to survive the earth. I do not know if you believe in a God, a higher being the Almighty “I Am,” but what if, just what if there is a loving spirit waiting for us one day who asks us to think of ourselves as precious? Our choices and decisions are very important. We are going to fail, to fall but the struggle for us is not in giving up, but going through the pains of this life for a greater good – the ultimate gift, salvation for eternity. I have pain every day but I won’t give up trying to persevere. It is the struggle itself that makes us whole. Knowing that life is hard for everyone. I once had pain so bad after my last c-section but I realized that there were babies dying from hunger around the world and pain beyond belief for many. It was then that I was happy just to be alive and in knowing that my children need me desperately. For if I am not there, I can not assume someone else will be. We have these crosses, these hardships to make us stronger. I am so sorry if I sound like I am preaching. I am simply trying to get my deepest heartfelt emotions out because I believe that ending ones life is not in the greater plan for a fruitful outcome. Never allow you to be that upset that you would want to hurt someone so precious.Â I know that you believe that your pains are insurmountable but together and with God, we can overcome anything.Â I am here if anyone ever needs to talk. Thanks for reading 🙂 God’s Blessing for you!