I swear I would kill myself just to make my stomach stop hurting, but I just can’t give my stomach that kind of satisfaction!!! I have an intestinal disease (celiac) that I’ve been battling all my life but its been hospitalizing me for about 10 years now. And god forbid if I tell a doctor that I’m tired dealing with this shit then there ready to have me mentally evaluated. One of these days Alice, right to the fucking moon!!!!!
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I was thinking of you, which you might find strange as we’ve never communicated with one another. I just like you I guess.
I’ve spent the last 4 years on and off steroids for a similar condition so I know what it feels like. Yours is more serious though.
I hope you can bring it under control.
Thank you for the kind words. And no I don’t find it strange, I don’t really comment a lot on other people’s posts but I enjoy reading what you have to say to them.
If you don’t mind me asking what stomach ailment is troubling you?
Colitis
Does it cause you to have a special diet? That’s one of the most difficult things to maintain for me, my stomach is so finicky to begin with and then having to force feed myself certain foods is a real hassle.
I avoid certain foods that in my experience trigger it like noodles, spicy food sometimes.
It’s not the worst thing in the world to have. It doesn’t prevent me from doing stuff or affect my life much when it’s under control. I haven’t relapsed in awhile.
The problem is that the steroids have become less effective so I have to take more to bring it under control. I take Asacol daily and as long as it’s under control I’m fine. One day theres a chance the steroids will stop working altogether and then you have to have surgery.
Celiacs and Crohns are much worse.
celiac affects my life so much. It pretty much dictates every aspect of my life, there was once a time that It didn’t and i could function half way normal, but now I half to make sure my stomach’s not going to act up.
I take 2 medications, zofran to stop the vomiting and vicodin to hold down burning pain. I also have a special gluten free diet that can be somewhat of a *****.
And I don’t like surgery, or anything that you half to be put to sleep for. Its a weird feeling being put to sleep medically. Maybe it’s the fact that I know that people are going to be standing over me while i sleep.
It’s a challenge. That’s what makes you awesome-cool. At your worst, think about all the people around you, how much they care and how amazing you are.