Hi there, i’m not going to bore you with my life story, i’ll be here all day! But just in a nutshell, I’ve suffered from severe depression, anxiety and Borderline personality disorder for over 10 years. I’ve tried absolutely everything to try get better, including ECT.  Anyway, I’ve been thinking about suicide for at least the last 2 years and I’ve attempted several times with no luck (obviously!). I really cannot stand living anymore and the pain is unbearable!
Just out of curiosity, how do you know when enough is enough? I see some of you have set a deadline (scuse the pun) for your suicide. How do you decide on a date?
I would greatly appreciate any feedback 🙂
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Hi B.B. I guess you’ve asked the million dollar question. Some people know (there have been a few SPers who set a date and stuck to it like clockwork), but I’m guessing most people, like you & me, just bear the pain as best they can until something pushes them over the edge.
It’s hard for me to pick a date (for anything). I usually plan my actions around hypothetical events. For example, when either of my parents dies, there’s a 68% chance that I’ll kill myself. If both of them die, there’s a 98% chance. (This isn’t necessarily due to any attachment I have to them, but simply because when they’re dead my death will officially not hurt anyone.
you’ll know its the right time when you have a loaded gun in your hand 🙂
I remember telling myself I wouldn’t live past a certain age.. but i have. Though after passing a birthday milestone, it’s been on my mind a lot more than before.
I think it’s part of the process? some people think about suicide.. further along they mentally plan how they’d do it.. past that, they actively assemble what they’d need to make it happen.. setting a date seems like the last step before taking the plunge.
That’s the catch:
No one will ever know.
It might have been too early.
It might have been too late.
Or you might have gotten it just right.
Damn, i suffer from this stuff as well and i thought i was the only one. I don`t think theres any “disorder“`. Its just who we are. I try to bear it as well but i get VERY impulsive. I don`t know how you decide a date but you pick a day when you`v said your goodbyes and you go for it. Dont look back man. Also, i advice you to try shrooms before you go. If you can get access to shrooms.