Why do I have to be so awkward around new people? I don’t really care what they think of me. I wish I would still say, “I don’t care what they think of me.” But I do… And that’s what sucks the most. I get told that I’m funny, but I feel like a fool. I feel as though I’m going though more than half my life in a daze not knowing what to do or say. Ugh, hell I don’t even know what to say now as I’m writing this. Â And I can’t even give a presentationÂ without having a panic attack or choking on my own words. I hate being judged and told what to do, I hate when someone tells me that I’m wrong or cant do anything, because it makes me feel worthless. but I know I’m not, and the people around me care… or at least I think they do… I’m not sure. I need to stop being like this, but I can’t.