2 years clean and i finally broke down. Â My wrists have so many scars on them its….its funny…
I claimed insanity today..I cut my arms and laughed as the blood slowly came out. I threw my head back and laughed.
I dont cut deep enough to drip blood..just enough to leave a mark.
closed my eyes and keep picturing me as a little kid. running through the grass with my arms open wide my head held high…laughing
I posted my picture of my cuts because to me its a pretty picture..but no one else thinks so…their all mad at me and it just makes me cut more.
ask me why i cut…because its the only pain i can control and i love it. I love to be able to be in control of something for once.
they walk all over me and dont notice. I post a pic and now im the bad guy. 
 just look at my cuts…their so pretty..
i claimed insanity today…i feel like im losing my mind..
i want someone to save me…but i dont want their help..
i claimed insanity today..threw my head back and laughed as the blood came through..
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Hello?
I love how you kids drop this garbage and just take off! lol
Sorry.. Just saying what everyone else is thinking, since they don’t want to look like the bad guys! 😛
@all- your welcome! 😀
‘Tis but a flesh wound.
lol
I wish I had the guts to do that
To do what the poster did or mock like clevername?
To cut like that but I don’t want people asking wat it is
This site is becoming worthless to those who have real life problems. I feel bad for this site and the ones who take it seriously.
Mhmmm and I’m one of those causing the worthlessness huh?
Are you?
I’m asking you
I can’t answer that kid! Let me tell you a bit about me though:
I’m just angry from working so damn hard..don’t mind me. Only trying to find a place where a strong person like me can talk about real life problems like trying to stay alive with the real weight of the world coming down on me..so try not to take offense.
Oh..and my spine is broken in 2 places so I feel nothing but pain and anguish for being alive with this fucked up body. I’m no one to concern with, I’m just an old fogy. But I’ll stop complaining on your suicide site and let you get back to your friends on twitter and face book, and let you get back to talking about how cool suicide is. Don’t forget to like comment and subscribe to your favorite suicide method. Bye bye! lol
Lets me tell you something. I have no twitter no nothing I am alone. I am abused. Don’t worry this site will be all your again. I’m done see ya
reminds me of how i use to cut so often…
wow REALTALK that was incredibly fucking mean!!! talking to that kid like that.. you make me so dam angry!! I saw through you from the beginning! this is NOT A SITE FOR ADULTS ONLY!! THESE KIDS HAVE EVERY FUCKING RIGHT TO POST JUST LIKE YOU!! Stop thinking about yourself and what you want! Are you so clueless you think kids don’t off themselves to???? Sure your in pain but they are to!Go take a big look at youtube and check out just how many kids from 11 up kill themselves. You don’t own this dam site don’t tell these kids what to post, if you don’t like what these kids have to say.. then keep your asshole comments to yourself!
Kids have different kind of problems as adults, but those problems are just as big and serious. Right now breaking up with the one you love or bulying from your peers is not a big deal, but when you were 15 it really is a huge problem. Try to remember how you felt as a teenager.
RT30- Have you ever considered anger management. You seem to be angry all the time. You shouldn’t take it out on the kids.
I agree with iamsara!!! I think he’s on a power trip and enjoys contributing to people killing themselves. He’s full of it- how can he work at all if his spine is broken and he’s on this site all the time pretending to be suicidal and bulling anyone and everyone??
Im sorry if im some “little kid” thats posting pointless stuff.
I needed to and this isnt the only thing i have posted. Im a writer and to write down quick things like this helps me get it out of my mind. I do have real life problems. You dont know me nor do you know what i go through on a daily basis. im 18 and ive been molested 5 times. and raped twice. ive been beaten half to death by someone i thought would protect me. So dont sit here and talk shit on a post just because you having a bad day. Who the hell are you to judge someone else. You dont know who i am. You dont know my real life problems.
ChellyDiane, please don’t let others minimize your problems or destroy what you’re trying to do in life. There will always be people who act as obstacles and, just as importantly, there will be people who back you up. I’m sorry about what you’ve experienced and I hope that you’re able to move forward.
Thank you that.road
i appreciate it.
Not cool, The1… It’s bad enough that you’ve created multiple disruptive posts. Now you’re expanding your reach. How about leaving the others alone? Believe it or not, this site is more than just text on a screen… There are real-world challenges here.
she is attention seeking! really? posting pics of your cuts what did she expect a cookie!?
No i wasnt seeking attention. I was simply just posting. SO GO BLOW IT OUT YOUR ASS 🙂 have a nice day.
A cookie? Perhaps not… Empathy? Perhaps yes.
look whatever you say you were SEEKIN ATTENTION put a band aid on it and shut the fuck up
RT30 you need to stop picking on kids, they may not have gone through what you have but they have every right to post on this site just as you do. Their pain is just as worthy as everyone elses, stop being a douche.
The1 I don’t expect you to last here long as I have recommended you be banned.
@Chelly – I believe you can delete insensitive and vulgar or disrespectful comments from threads that you started – it’s better to rise above those that can’t at least be civil and respectful instead of engaging them on their level of crassness.
@RT30 – your responses here are surprisingly insensitive – they seem out of character – i know you’re better than that
@SP Moderator – thanks for cleaning up the vomit on aisles 3, 5 and 8 left by the1 – i certainly concur with the recommendation to ban this user – it’s one thing to hold a contradictory opinion – it’s not at all helpful to come here and hurt people for sport (not that he was very sporting)
dawg
Oh wow banning me thats mature just because my opinion is on the side of reality I should be silenced….LOL you guys need to run your site a little better you let people think its okay to be lazy and self loathing when society doesn’t view people like that kindly…. and dawg shut up man you are the reason people believe its okay….what ever happened to free speech!?
The1> Free speech (the first amendment) applies to the US Government only. It does NOT apply to private enterprise. Although privately run companies may give you a forum to express your opinions, they are under no legal obligation to do so.
You’re in school, supposedly. Perhaps you should read up on it before posting about it.
Chelly: i think youre beautiful and i am a cutter too and in no m=way do i think youre attention seeking. FUCK HIM. i send you all my love <3
… and my original point stands. If you don’t know about something, in this case free speech, don’t post about it. I’m not a nuclear physicist so I don’t post about nuclear principles. Perhaps you shouldn’t post about free speech? Or, at the least, Google it first?
“free speech … blah blah … you should shut up” … the fact that you can’t post a single sentence without completely contradicting yourself is a perfect example of why you should be seen as irrelevant and useless here.
FYI – we are all users here – we “let” people express themselves, what we don’t tolerate is people disrespecting others … your schtick is old and tired … i’ve seen one trick ponies that are more entertaining
brony dawg
Who else does that? People who are experiencing great pain and who are looking for ways to cope. The original poster is looking for others who may be experiencing what she is… or who have experienced it in the past. It’s called COMMUNITY… and when a community comes together, people can work as a team and provide comfort, strategy, and support.
You apparently missed the part where the poster wrote “2 years clean and I finally broke down.” Two years is quite a long time to go in between “attention seeking” behaviors, isn’t it? She’s having a rough moment… Compassion goes a long way.
THere he goes again with his one trick … dude seriously … for a “highly educated college double major” you have less command of the english language (or any language) than a third grader. I would say it’s painful to watch you showcase your limited intelligence … but that would assume there is SOME intelligence … you are void in that department.
sad dawg
Dude I have a Masters in Engineering, get over yourself!
This place is supposed to be a place for people to safely tell their stories, what we don’t need is a pathetic little troll stepping all over this.
This is a prime example of why I need to be able to IP block people.
@Chelly, I’m really sorry for what you’ve been through. Can’t even imagine how horribly that must have impacted your life.
Self-harm is an addiction. I’m not surprised you binged even after two years clean. It’s okay to. You have countless chances to stop it. You did once, you can do it again. Good luck.
@The1, you wouldn’t the know the meaning of “reality” if it continuously fucked you up the ass.
I don’t think blocking or banning him is the way to go.
and telling her she’s attention seeking is helping loads, huh? that’s just your assumption. call it what you want, you’re wasting your time here. have you not realized that yet?
For a little while, I went back and forth on my ban opinion. Now I support a ban… and multiple IP bans if needed. At a certain point, when a visitor rejects a Moderator’s request to cease, the Welcome Mat has to get removed. The1 has had more than an ample opportunity to voluntarily leave after repeatedly making his point. If voluntary doesn’t work, other strategies should be tried.
@The1, You are a sad, strange little man. – Buzz Lightyear
😀
Hmm, good point. You’re more like Mr. Potato Head 😮
I am so sick of people saying stuff to these kids!!!!!!! Leave them the hell alone you
jerk!!! If you want to act like that go out and say those things to peoples face! I bet you won’t keep saying it long..
Oh, if I caught him in real life, he’d be in pieces scattered around the city. Figuratively speaking.
Not an internet thug. I just have a bunch of chainsaws, shovels and sledge hammers.
Thank you to everyone thats sticking up for me. Im not seeking attention. That was never my intention. I was just writing to get things off my mind. The negative posts didnt help anything. Just made me think about everyone else negative in my life. Ive had to listen to nothing but negativity for years. And i appreciate the people that are standing up for me. I love yall 🙂
And to the1 talking shit…your cold hearted and heartless. You need help. I wish someone could find it for you
Lol The1 just so you know not ever one that depressed or suicidal is cutters,, and druggies …..>.> some looks at that sort of behavior badly , but let them make their own mistakes
My post has been deleted 🙁
It always happens on a cigarette break
We know Chelly. The people here are worth a million more than him any day.