I know there are so many things to be grateful for. We are not poor, I have a relatively high paying job, a college education, I have friends, my parents are okay, I have food everyday, I am not abused, I have talents, I do not have any major problems that could be the stuff of movies or tv shows, at times I am even considered to be physically attractive by some. On the outside, I am just normal, who have NO RIGHT TO BE DEPRESSED.
But deep inside I feel dysfunctional, I cannot stop myself from dumping negative feelings in my social media accounts, and almost every week I have episodes of wanting to die and end it all. This has went on for years. I feel very alone and that I do not have any real connection with anyone. I have only myself as a real companion but I really can’t stand myself. I am everything wrong. But I do not know what is wrong with me and it scares the shit out of me.
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Sometimes we can’t help how we feel even when for all intensive purposes we shouldn’t feel that way.
You seem to have all the things that would make someone happy. However, There is a little dirty secret about depression….There doesn’t have to be a “reason” for you to be depressed at least not an identifiable one. There could be chemical imbalances in your brain and I’ve also read about seasonal depression. There could be many other unknown causes besides the usual reasons that people come depressed. Have you tried talking to anybody about your feelings?
Depression is not a privilege reserved for the downtrodden. If anyone has the right to their own personal feelings, then everyone “has the right to be depressed.”
You don’t need a “right” to feel.
This is a particularly disturbing aspect of the prevailing attitudes of today’s “society.” People acting like anyone must first possess a “right” to feel whatever they feel. As if we’re not entitled to our own natural humanity and emotions.
The system produces this misguidance and misconception /intentionally/. If that’s not enough to justify being depressed… well, i personally have copious other reasons.
But still. Anyone has “the right” to feel whatever they feel, no matter how unreasonable or irrational. It’s when people embrace unreasonable or irrational feelings, and then act upon them, in ways that impact others, that ends up causing most of the problems. Unfortunately, this is a very common occurrence. Look around at the world. I can’t be the only one who thinks most of the sources and causes are blatantly obvious.