January 25, 2013 I met the love of my life.
I’m 15, he’s 21. On January 26th we got together, knowing full well what could happen if we were to get caught. But we did research, we looked up laws. We were suppose to be okay as long as two things stood.
We didn’t have sex, and my parents consented..
On March 26th my dad found out the Nick was really 21. He told him he was never to see me again, telling me that even if he consented he would go to jail.. the police even told me if he was to just be okay with our relationship and we weren’t having sex there was nothing the law could do to stop us.
When my parents thought he was 17, they loved him. Said he was amazing for me. They find out he’s 21 they freak. I guess I know where their coming from but this guy. He’s so much more then any one has ever been to me.
He helped me throw away razors. I promised him I would never kill my self. And I fully intend to keep that promise. I love him..
June 15, 2013. We were hanging out at my house like we always do.
My parents were suppose to be at work.
My mom was home.
I think my life finally hit rock bottomn then.
I lost the one thing that gave me hope in life. Gave me a reason for living to stop cutting. To love my self.
I cant speak to him anymore, I can’t see him anymore.
We agreed before the police escorted him out of the house we would wait till the day I’m 17, that would be when our love was legal. (Texas law 17 is age of consent)
Till then I sit hear waiting
I have 560 days to go. It kills me. I miss him. I need him.
And right now he’s looking at 5-1o years for trespassing.
5-10 years for enticing a child.
5-20 years for inappropriate relationship with a minor. (kissing )
And what ever else my dad is gonna charge him with.
This guy that everyone said was using me put me on a pedestal. He made me feel like I could truly be loved. When I had a nightmare he come over in the morning. Wrap me in his arm’s and hold me till I stopped shaking/crying.
He bought me gifts, took me on dates, listened to me. He was a best friend before we went out. And we became even closer while dating. He’d take me to school everyday, buy me food, curl up on the coach with me and just watch a movie.
I want to marry him . I know I’m 15 and all of you are saying “I don’t know what I want” , “I’m to immature” , “I’m to young”
I was raped when i was 3-8 years old. By different people. I’ve had NO self worth till I met him. I was scared to be alone with a guy , I lived in my own world and let no one in. I’ve matured faster then most, going to court, testifying, learning to deal with depression, ptsd, anxiety, psuedo seizures, ect.
I’ve grown up faster then most, and I know what I want.
Tomorrow I start school. The first time in almost 7 months of not having him drive me to school. Not looking forward to seeing him everyday.
School has never been a good place for me. No one really understands me and I get bullied a lot.
I can not begin to tell you how many times I’ve cut in those bathrooms, or how many times I’ve tried to kill my self there.
It’s hard, I miss him. I don’t understand. They didn’t even look at us as a couple.
Just a 15.
And a 21 year old.
Why can’t they actually see our relationship, then judge if it was healthy. If he was “using me”.
Cause I promise you.
He was probably the best damn thing that has ever happened to me.
Were the kinda of couple he wears each others stuff (he wears my bows I wear his hats)
We cuddle and watch movies. We cry together. We argue about stupid stuff. We have tickle wars. We bet kisses. He buys me stuff when I tell him over and over again not to. He makes me laugh when i cry. Were honest with each other. Were both head strong and butt heads a lot. We play call of duty. And watch anime. We sing songs in the car and take long drives.
Were happy.
Why is that so hard for everyone to understand.
We both have a bad past. And being together has made both of us happy..
4 comments
Hey there 🙂 I’m 14, my bf is 15. I know exactly how you feel about this guy. Except the whole age difference thing (I’m sorry about that). But I know if I saw you with him, and I didn’t know your story, it wouldn’t phase me at all. Love knows no age, no gender, and no limit. If you’re in love, you’re in love. No one should try and stop you. I was molested when I was six, and sexually harassed about a year ago. My boy has stayed by me for three years now. I’m going to marry him. All I can tell you is to stand strong, and have faith in him. You can make it through this. Like my best friend says: it’ll all be okay in the end. If its not okay, its not the end 🙂
Try to hold on. I was once in a relationship where she was younger (still legal, in her mid 20s). Just like you described, everyone was cool until they found out my age and decided it wasn’t appropriate. Overnight I became a monster to everyone. They did all sorts of rude things to me, but I never fought back. I had hoped she would tell them off, but she never did. Eventually the whole relationship fell apart.
I know you can’t stand up to your parents yet. But you can let your bf know that you will wait, and when the time comes you’ll be with him. I hope it works out. Society can be so judgmental.
Brooklyn, I feel so sorry for you, seriously. Your post touched my heart.
On the show the walking dead there was a quote, “Adolescence is a product of the 20th century”. I wholeheartedly agree with that. Kiss your Dad’s ass right now. I don’t know who touched you when you were a baby (my dad touched my fyi) but you can’t let that stand between you and the love of your life right now. You are at an age where you have to live by everyone else’s rule. SUCKS! I know. But if you accept this, and WAIT, you will realize down the road that it was worth it. I’d give up 10 years of my life RIGHT NOW(!) to know that I’d be happy for the rest of it and I’m goddamn near 40.