Broken or not, are the worst.
My boyfriend made me promise to him I’d  stop cutting.
as if it’s that easy.
Well it’s been a couple days and today I got really mad, and I don’t always get mad like the normal person. I can’t just sit there and be mad. I need to break things and scream and cut and it’s the worst feeling well today I got really bad and well I cut. alot.
like more than I ever have before at one time.
of course I did it one my legs so he can’t see, but I’m a shitty person. that’s all.
2 comments
I don’t see how you are a shitty person. Unless you kick kittens or push over old people. You may have broken your promise but that does not make you evil in anyway. Everybody lies or lets people down at some point in their lives. its called being human. We are in no way perfect and we all do stupid shit sometimes.
Perhaps you should try to explain to your bf what it feels like to need to cut. Explain it in terms he can understand, tell him its like his urge to have sex only twice as bad.
One day at a time soldier. You can try again tomorrow.
Promises are made to be broken, its just human nature. Besides taking away your coping method is a bad thing and could lead to even worse actions. You obviously need cutting in order to deal for the moment anyway. Don’t stop, just make sure you controll it and not the other way arround