have to get some shots tomorrow. they might see some other scars. if they ask i’ll probably cry… if i do, they’ll think something’s wrong. why is it so difficult to have/show any feelings in this world today? um anyway, even if it goes fine, i’m pretty much done. not angry or tired or anything, just feeling inadequate/invisible… and i don’t want to be here/anywhere anymore. how this will end, i don’t know yet, but i know it will end soon.
i will lay my body down
oh somewhere, beneath the sun
flee the safety of the trees
where i’ve taken, i have not brought
i will bathe my chest in light
from the banks of the rivers
walk with haste into the flood
stand there naked, where the rapids run
i’ll take with me no regrets
nor make peace w/ my daughters and sons
carry with me only thoughts
that if shared, would surely cut
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You description, it makes me think of someone making peace with themself. It makes me think of like a farytale that everything will be ok. But it’s a farytale. So it won’t be true. Everything’s not gonna be ok for some people, but others it might
trust me, no one will miss me, if that’s what you mean. and as for the rest of the world, well at least i won’t be here to watch its destruction
I don’t really know what I meant. But I just said what popped into my mind.
I feel the same way. This world is just going downhill and fast
mhmmm