I don’t really have much to say for myself. I just wanted to let you guys know I haven’t died yet.
Thank you so much, I really mean that more than those dumb words can express. Thank you for posting in my last thread with comforting thoughts, thanks to everyone who has replied to any of my crazy posts, or even if not, thanks for taking the time to read.
The bridge was there. That big yawning gap was still calling me. I don’t know why it didnt happen. Maybe it was because there were 2 orange barrels that werent there before, and I wasn’t sure if maybe they were on top of concrete bollards. Maybe it was because I wanted to see my dog one more time. Maybe it was that I was replaying all the things you guys have been telling me, all the support. The image of 1000 paper cranes, Persephone’s movie picks, iamsara crying over some person she never met… Maybe it was because I just chickened out.
Probably a little bit of everything.