I don’t know what to do anymore. It feel like I lost everything that holds importance in my life has left me, and I don’t have the energy to take it back. I sit here and I think and I watch the ugliness in the world around me. I try to stay possitive but all the pain just builds up to were I can’t paint anymore and I lose confidence with my singing. Maybe I should try writing? I just need something to keep me from going back to self harm. I feel alone in the world just waiting to die and I can’t take it anymore. I recently went through a hard brake up and lost my dog I had all my life. My friends made hang out with other people now that my best friend Ashlee’s gone. I just want someone to be here and tell me it’s okay and give me a hug. Just so I don’t feel so rundown and unwanted. People tell me I’m attractive or how everyone wants me. If that’s true why can’t I see it? I’m just lost and unsure of where to go from here.