Back in June i told myself i’m done self harming. Today after almost 3 months i relapsed. Its getting harder and harder to stop cutting, but the saddest part is that nobody understands. They don’t realize how much pain someones in when that blade slides across their own skin. I hate cutting yet i love it and i’m not sure i’m going to be able to stop again…..
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I never know what to say when I read posts. I guess I should just say I personally know why people cut themselves and kill themselves to end their pain. I’m bankrupt in the advice column these days.
honestly its okay because i just need to tell someone but no one around here wants to here about it so this is just my way of admitting it to myself. if that makes any sense. i just like to believe people are listening and sorta care you know what i mean.
@deadontheinside, yes I understand. Hence my latest entry “Passerby.” All those years I wrote I always knew who my real audience was: my future self reading what I wrote years ago. And that is exactly what happened.
not really for future me because im not sure if there will be a future me…
I’m 42 so too old to be on this forum. Writing was my way to release my pain. Internet forums didn’t exist back then so I wrote to myself. Now that the forums do exist, I find I’m not able to stick with any of the few I’ve attempted. These places feel as hollow as the feelings I’m trying to empty.
understandable, but im just a little 15 year old :/, this hasnt helped me much but im hoping in time it will but ill never know…
@jswissman You’re not too old. The ages of people here have varied greatly, from pre-teens to 70s, that I’m aware. Maybe even older.
^ I agree I don’t think age means anything and nobody here cares about it.
honestly age shouldn’t matter either way…… because everyone at some point has lows some need help and some can go at it alone but some lows last a long time so people need help (like me) but thats what this is here for so we can talk and help each other through tough times
Isn’t that one crazy lady Ama like 92 or something? lol
@RealTalk Lol no she’s more like 50’s or 60’s, I think. I hope she won’t see your comment and be offended. 😐
I suppose what I mean is that I went it alone for so long that now, well…… my circumstances are such that I need to hide my pain to protect the ones I love…..the important thing is releasing it, but that doesn’t have to be public. Anyway, no worries…..
😉 she knows I gots nothing but love!
😳At least I hope she knows!!