I realized something. The main reason I feel this way is not from the bullying, it’s from my parents and myself. I think my greatest enemy is myself, and I fear that in order to win the battle u must do whatever it takes. I’m about to fall asleep on the floor, as there were not enough beds in my hotel room for my parents to let me sleep on. I guess I deserve it.
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Just use a bed, don’t be so HARD on yourself…
haha, get it? ;p
*sigh* I wonder what hell will be like =/
I read an article today, or yesterday, about conditioning, and how we only hate ourselves because of values we were taught by society (it was actually a youtube audiobook, whatever). If you follow the logic that our values can only be given to us, or derived through our own experiences in life, then it’s society, and everything but ourselves, that make us hate ourselves.
Bullying adds to it, like everything else, piling on more stress until whomever collapses…
If sleeping on the floor makes you feel better about yourself, go for it; I don’t see why you don’t just use a bed, and thank your parents for it in return.
Treat yourself like an enemy and you are one. Try a Little Tenderness.