It would be great to have no responsibility and no school work. No pressure just follow a schedule. It wouldn’t matter how ugly i am who cares if mentally unstable people… wait that’s me too…very mentally unstable people think about me. I’m afraid i could be wrong about what being committed would be like. Am i the only one who’s thought of this?
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No, you’re not the only one. I’ve never been, but its been threatened on several occasions. I considered giving in and going, I thought maybe it might help, but I never did
i was for 72 hours after I “freaked out” the night my wife left. I didnt take it well, went out and tried to end it.
What I saw in there, actually, was a mixture of folks. Some drug addicts, some obviously had severe issues, but what really shocked me was that there were 3 other normal folks in there who were there for the same reason I was…… their spouse left/abandoned them, and they didnt take it well either.
If you are talking long term, I cant comment. I have no history of mental illness, docs even told me they believe I just didnt know how to deal with the shock of the event.
I have never been…nor threatened to be. Though for me no responsibility and no schoolwork would be AWESOME… Sometimes I catch this thought that it would be a relief to be treated as a retard…idk. Like nobody is taking you seriously and you don’t have to take anything seriously anymore either. So you could just take it one day at a time and die there slowly not having to worry about anything. But I’m afraid it won’t be so peaceful as I like to picture it. Though I guess it would depend on what country you live in and the institution you get placed in, a lot of factors. So I dream on…
I have. Its not fun belive me, the only thing I would ay that’s good about it is you don’t have the strain of worrying about how your going to pay bills, get up for work, no-one to talk too. Etc..
The main reason I hated it is because they treated me like an animal. The disregard anything you say, and even if you feel your getting better its not up to you to decide that. ‘They know best’
The foods disgusting, I stopped eating because I didn’t liike it and they thought I was going on hunger strike.
Morons.
They take a little thing and mutiply it by 100.
And its the small things that get to you, just the way the doctor speaks down at you. Or changes his or her voice when they speak to you. The fact there’s not much privacy except in your room.
The beds are horrible becausae they make it in a way you can’t halm yourself etc..
If you self harm to cope, they search you.
And in some wards they cease your phone.
Sometimes I do feel like going back just to get away from the world. But being there for 3 months I just keep remining myself the relief I felt when I got home again.
I guess its all down to experience.
That’s my personal experience of it..
I did meet some amazing people there I could relate too & I enjoyed arguing and getting into fights with the staff because nothing really mattered and it was fun to wind them up, see them get concerned for no reason.
& maybe it’s just me but I kept seeing it as a game. I was constantly thinking of ways to escape..
But the stories I heard about ppl that tried to escape put me off.
Oh and if anything, being in there made me worse, it made me think, now I can’t satop thiinking. I came out last year and since then I’m more suicidal and I’m isolating myself from evereyone.
But, Stay strong x
I’ve been in 24 times but most were short stay, 2 weeks to a month. I actually joined just so I could comment on this. Some people go in and they hate it. You have no freedom and you feel caged. I sometimes feel that way. Sometimes though I love it. Life is simpler and quiet on a locked ward. State hospitals are worse than the private ones though. State hospitals have a lot of forensic patients. It is a little more like jail. You’re treated more like a number. Still, life is simpler if you forget that there is an outside.
I have been two times really, since i was put in a very bad one first time but “escaped” with another patient there an then caught and sent to another one an a judge kept me in the second one . I actually got along with the patients in there beter than most people irl. There were a lot of very nice people there i will never forget. Guess it all depnds on where u get sent
ive been three times. i cant really remember the first two times (i think it was for my own safety&mental wellbeing. i know i was taken in after my accident) but the other time was just last month or so.
it started because i had to tell my therapist (who ive had for a while and trusted completely) that i had a suicide plan. he wouldnt leave me alone about it and threatened me with more consequences if i didnt. i told him my plan (even though i explicitly said i wasnt going to act on them) and he deemed it a threat that its a realistic plan and i could go through with it, so i was detained for 72 hours.
when i got there, they basically took all my stuff (my hoodie drawstring, my belt, my headphones, my ipod) and set me up in this dark little room. there was a lamp & a desk, a little bed in the corner, and on one side there was a barred window up at the top next to the ceiling.
my mom brought in some things for me to stay (my notebook & pencil case, my pillow and blanket) and they took the pencils and the pillowcase away too. it was incredibly boring.
i think its different depending on what reason youre detained for, and in my case they sent a therapist and a physical doctor in every hour to check on me. they asked a lot of invasive questions at first, but then later they just asked normal questions (do you feel sad, how is home, how is school, ect)
they give you three meals a day and they give you snacks and water if you ask politely. i had to have an iv twice because i refused meals.
they dont let you go to the bathroom on your own (they send someone to stand outside the door and wait for you)
they clipped my fingernails because i couldnt stop holding my arms (i dont remember trying to hurt myself but i might have done it without realizing
they talked to me as if i were a four year old child with a bomb strapped to my chest
i wish i could talk more about the other patients but i wasnt really interested in going to the rec room and seeing anybody. i heard screaming and crying during the night though, someone going through a maniac episode. ‘
i was never so happy to go back home tbh. and i still had to make up all the homework and lessons i missed at school.
so yeah its really not as great as you think it is.
My Experience Of Being In A Mental Hosp./psych Ward.. A tiny bit of backstory Okay so my First time started when I had a complete nervous breakdown So anyways let’s skip ahead I was taking to hospital. They decide I need to be evaluated in order to do this you must agree to go through these doors to a back area and once you let them take you through those doors there is NO backing out.
A nurse told me to calm down one takes my Belongings and puts them in a brown bag the other gets you a hosp Robe and socks. Got asked a few questions the main one being do I want to harm myself which I reluctantly nodded then I agreed to voluntarily sign myself in I had to sign a paper they then gave a info pamphlet it had stuff about visiting hours patient rights etc
So they take me to the nurses station sit me down and take my blood pressure I am taken by a nurse and a doctor to an exam room This is where they really check you out to see if youve got any thing on you had to remove my robe After that they took me to my room.
There are about seven rooms in total all next to each other side by side.
Thanks for the help and stories everyone! It was really helpful!