Pills,glory pills

I have been taken this anxiety pills that my psychiatrist has give me and they are incredible strong,when i take them my muscles just chills like if they where smoking weed,i feel like in a cloud and i am so relaxed my deppression gets weakest,sometimes i take more than my psy told mecalled it medication abuse,yes who cares.someres i mixed with a bunch of alcohol and its glorious,and sometimes not much but sometimes i brake the pills into my joints and smoke them,directly to the brain,that is just another dimension.