Day 19

Hi Guys,

It’s day 19… Woo… Ummm sooo… Guess I’m continuing these things?

My day… I had a few panic attacks… Well to be exact two… *sigh* Maybe they’ll get better… Umm… So yeah….

How am I? Physically: Terrible absolutely terrible Mentally: Awful

My physical state… *sigh* I’m sickish… I have a headache, my nose hurts, I may or may not have a fever and I’m really stressed out… So I’m not doing so well in my physical state all I want to do is curl up and cuddle with someone, but alas no one is here to cuddle with me 🙁 sooo… *sigh* Oh and my eyes hurt and I have no clue why soo yay?

My mental state… *sigh* it’s um bad… I’m feeling terrible right now… I don’t know guys…. I don’t know too many things… I’m trying to be happy to smile to laugh, but this wave of depression just hits me so hard and I don’t know what to do… I mean I could talk, but no one is really up when this wave hits me… And there really isn’t anyone to help me… *Sigh*

Poem:

Maybe today
I’ll tell you
Maybe today
I’ll tell you the truth
Maybe today
I’ll tell you the whole truth
Maybe today
I’ll tell you how I am
Maybe today
I’ll tell you how I really am
Maybe today
I’ll tell you how I truly, really, am
Maybe today
You’ll ask

Sidenote: How are you?
Other Sidenote: Would you guys be okay if I just posted a poem? Or should I continue with these diary things? Maybe yes? No?

Au Demain