IDONT KNOW

i dont know myself anymore, i look the same and act the same but i feel dead inside, incomplete and alone. this is not because i lost love or some shit like that, but i just dont feel worth anything. not a second of your time, not a breath of oxygen, not even the space i exist in. this isnt how im suppost to live this, isnt how i am. i’m gay…i came out to my mom a few months ago. she’s alright with it, but i just cant hide in this shell anymore. she told me not to tell anybody about it because they would judge me. she’s probably right, but i cant do it anymore. i’ve been hiding for so long, i feel that I dont exist. my person is an empty shell of a human being and my soul, my spirt is trapped. what’s worse is that if it’s let free, then what? what if no one cares, i’ll just be one more queer in the world. destined to isolation. im not looking for sympathy of tear filled eyes, i just…want to know if there is anyone who feels what i feel.