What’s it like to have friends.

I’m a 24 year old guy who has never experienced true friendship before.

I’ve had people in the past who pretended to like me for who I am, but they would never call me to ask how I was doing or if I wanted to hang out somewhere. I use to be a nicer person in the past, but that never mattered in the slightest to the people around me. People will often lie and use you for there own personal gain. That’s how I feel about the few people I’ve known in the past. It seem like the longer I live, the more angry and bitter I become. I’m starting to think that my life was a mistake. All of my life I have been alone and angry at everything that has happened to me. I never knew my father due to the fact that he abandoned my mother during pregnancy. My mother was a single mom very little educational background and no work experience. My mother had to make the difficult decision to let me be raised by her parents. My grandfather and grandmother adopted my mother at a young age. They already had several children of there own, yet they were compelled to adopted more children so they could abuse and throw to the curb when they turned 18. I was severely abused the same way my mother was growing up. It was not until I was about 12 years old that I was reunited with my mother. Times were very difficult for my mother, who had to work multiple jobs to keep a roof over our heads. I was alone for much of the time when I was off of school. I never developed any friendship what so ever. There are so many people in the world who want to use and abuse you, man it’s not even funny! These people are like “I’m go to stomp the crap out of you until there is nothing left.” There are so many abusive family members who look at another family member with disgust just because there were adopted or they do not “LOOK” like one of them. THIS WORLD SUCKS! THERE MUST BE SOMETHING BETTER OUT THERE!