I’ve given myself until the above date to find some meaning and joy in my life. If I can’t find it. Then that’s it.
I’m not gonna sit on my arse and mope. I’m going to try. I’m going to pull my soul apart with every second in attempt to find my meaning. This way I know I tried my best and have no regrets.
I’m not an attention seeker. I will follow through with all that you read. But I want some sort of record of my decision.
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I wish you the best of luck!
I honeslty hope by the end of May you will be happy and found what your looking for.
Keep your head high and remain strong.
Take care.
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Good luck if i dont get to talk to you.
Hey sure I’ll add you on FB if you like. If not you can get me at mradambartlett@hotmail.co.uk
Feeblefish, all I know about you is in your Bio. What are some of your plans to find joy before this date?
fake* facebook
A bit of travel. Gonna get around and out to find what I’m looking for. The biggest problem is it’s a case of I won’t know what it truly is until I find it.
Sorry for the pseudo intellectual bullshit, but it’s truly how it feels. If I knew what it truly was I wouldn’t have to search.
Also Glasschild. What? Please elaborate on your two word answer.
That is not a bullshit answer, you are looking. Just want to remind you that the events that bring joy to you can change on a daily basis. I wish you the best on your adventure and don’t forget to stop and smell the roses along the way.
Hope you find what you are looking for, at least you are giving it a real try and that is always good.
Thanks. I really want this to end positively. I genuinely do.
It’s just if it doesn’t. I really can’t see a way forward.
If it doesn’t, I really can’t see a way forward…….can you break that down?
I’ll try. I’m not great with words.
It’s a quest for reason. For purpose. I’ve tried long enough and now I’m giving myself a deadline. I chose the end of May because if I fail I want to leave this world on a sunny day and in Britain it’s full on summertime then. I’ll make a full day of it maybe a picnic on the cliffs or something. I’ll go out with a smile.
I hope it’s going well Feeblefish. We’re close to the date.