Just wondering if anyone here would miss me at all if I offed myself. I come here to vent and wallow. Really I probably come off as an asshole. I see a lot of people here posting saying they care about people here. Idk if I can believe that. We are just words behind a keyboard. You don’t know me. We have never met and probably never will. Why ? How do you vet attached to words on a screen?
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I personally won’t miss you.
I’m not entirely sure myself considering I have the empathetic capacity of a rock. But I think everyone here is going through a hard time in their lives and are here to encourage others and to convince themselves that life is worth living. At least that’s my take at least.
You will be missed on here, but more missed by the ones in your life in reality.
Its ok to vent. Your not an asshole, your simply in pain and angry becuase you are, so you may think you coming off as one but your not. Your only human.
Of course I dont know you, and you dont know me. We may never meet. But if I had the chance to meet you and learn who you are I would take that chance anyday.
But does not mean I should not try and listen to you. We may not know each other but I still would like to help you out of pain.
The thing is… I never see words just on a screen here. I see people behind every post and comment. People hurting.
John, there are members here that continue to work with individuals to the day they get better, to the very second they are ready to exit, or are here on to listen and talk on “days from the past”. We talk offline about souls here that we failed but “cab you please take on this” there is more then just posts and comments here. When I lose a friend to an early death based on being alone and the feeling of being unloved, a piece of me dies with them. You want to vet that, I will tell you when I get to my ability to no longer see the light.
I guess I’m asking for specifics. My depression has me in a low spot and I really am having a hard time imagining that strangers would be affected much. I prefer human interaction. I feel like I’m blind on the internet or when texting someone. I form connections. I make people smile until they make me cry….Bad guy fuck you. I know I’ll be missed. You nobody will ever miss mostly because you want everyone to suffer
John, all I can say is from what I have seen here. If they say you make a difference in their lives you do. I do not know your story, yet. I do know many of us write, sometimes there is a response. Then these friendships continue. Many of us want to do more but are limited by time. After all we can not unilaterally terminate care to these hurt souls. That means we just can’t respond to every individual, even if we want to. If someone shows interest in you on SP, my experiences are that it is genuine
Hearing about any suicide is sad, and people who have felt that feeling of hopelessness will miss you (in an impersonal general way). The real people in your life will be crushed though, most likely.
Yeah, “bad guy” seems to like being controversial. He speaks for a very small minority on here.
I’ve come to see this site as a big gathering of people who share similar pain and can express in a more honest way than they could do normally in their “regular” life. And even if it’s just text and messaging i really apreciate being able to participate (it has helped me a lot in many ways, even if it obviously it won’t solve everything).
In that sense i can say i care and i assume many more do (maybe in an impersonal way like SafetyRecall says, but still care), since in a way we are all in this “together” (if that makes sense).