I just wish my life would get better. Â But no, it’s just not going to. Â Everything has gone from bad to worse to much much worse. Â And no, please don’t tell me “things will get better” or “there’s a rainbow” or a “light at the end of the tunnel” because that’s just shit people say. Â It’s hell to suffer every agonizing moment of every fucking day.
I just wish I had killed myself when I was suicidal when I was younger because I could have avoided the last 27 years of misery. Â And now I no longer have the strength nor the will to do it. Â Now I’m just in limbo- not alive and not dead. Â I don’t necessarily want to be dead- I just don’t want to suffer anymore. Â :'(