Worst and last day EVER!!!

today is probably the worst day of my life. My girlfriend a few months back charged me with 6 different offenses, and that caused a lot of stress on me and one day I just got to the point I couldn’t take it anymore. I went to hang myself and just before I jumped I called her and she picked up as said she would come see me, and at no point did I think the cops would come because we’ll I trusted her, and she saved my life and after 4 mon this of that it was over but then she wanted to become an escort and I’m sorry but I don’t really want her to be an escort I’ve got no problem with those people I just don’t picture her doing that. But she lied and did it anyways and had sex with 4 different guys behind my back, even after I told her if your homest I wont be mad she continued to lie. Eventually I caught her red handed and she confessed we also found out she was pregnant at first we were afraid of whos it was but it is mine and I’m sorry if you guys disagree but I refuse to co parent I’m either the daddy or gtfo of  my life.and finally were sitting there a few days ago and shes like let’s be just friends like seriously if my parents knew I was even thinkin about her they would rip my head off. And she cheated and she controls me and she charged me and I’m getting dumped. So she goes out of her way to get caller I.D so she can block my number, so like wtf and so then I email her ends up she told my mom I contact her again I’m going to jail then my dad says gtfo of my house. So basically fucked everywhere socially, mentally, physicallly, educationally, have no where to Go. But after all this I still love her and if you read this I want you to know I’ll always love you and that tonight I die, and if you do end up finding this some how and you call 911 or tell my rents I’ll only kill myself faster tonight I sleep with the gods. Willem.