I have had terrible anxiety as long as I can remember, it switches topics, but they’re all irrational worries and fears.
I think I am having my worst anxiety period yet, It’s been going for 9 days, I can’t sleep,eat or be calm. The idea of suicide is comforting and keeps me going because it’s nice to think that if things get too bad, I can end them. But now it’s more than an idea I want to do it now, the only thing stopping me is I don’t know how to do it and my family will be devastated. I wish I had a gun, it would be so easy. Just pull the trigger and sleep forever, I try to stay asleep all day because it’s the closest I can get to death right now, just forget about everything. Help me I feel closed in on all sides by inescapable anxiety I need to die but I’m not courageous enough, help :'(.
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I invite you to walk through a house with me, I tell you it is completely safe, nothing will happen. You are apprehensive, but you go with me. We open the first door, and there is nothing there, we are safe. Second door, nothing, still safe. But, when I open the third door two hungry lions jump out and attack us. Although we survive the experience was terrifying and produces a lot of fear.
I ask you to go back into the house with me, again telling you we will be safe, there are no more lions, I promise. You don’t want to go, but after much convincing, you agree. I open the first door, nothing, we are safe. The second door, still safe. The third door….. no lions. We were safe through the entire house.
Just because something seems real and scary, and even if it was real at one time doesn’t mean that it still is or ever was. This helped me. Anytime I would start feeling anxious I would think of the lions and try to figure out what I was afraid of and whether or not I had a reason to be afraid. By the end of me analyzing the situation I was calmer.
Good luck, keep posting to SP, people care here.
Good exercise Ashley68 I’ll try it some time.