1. I cut, but I cut on my stomach so there is barely any chance anyone will find out. I was wondering why some people cut their arms/wrists?
2. I’ve read on here that many people have been going through depression for a long time, if not most of their lives. HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU TAKE IT?? I lost my faith in April of last year and became depressed in July, so it’s really only been about 9 months I think? And I severely want to die. I just want to know how you’ve managed to stick around for so long.
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1 – It would appear to be the most easily accessible extremity to most, and the prevalence of it in the media. I only cut my arms a couple times, as such the nerves in my right arm are wearing away. Which is fine since I’m a southpaw anyway (and the fact that I fire weapons with my left hand will help when the zombies come).
2 – I’ve battled with these thoughts for 5+ years now. Concurrently, I continued with life as usual and did my utmost to be occupied with anything other than my own thoughts. Military service kept me well occupied until my discharge last year, suffice if to say: the depression has well and truly overwhelmed me.
My brother suggested I join the military, then he said, “Nah, that’ll just make ya worse.” Haha. But to be honest, I don’t think I could take 5 years of this hell. If ECT doesn’t work for me, then I think I’ll be done.
I wouldn’t say I’m worse off because of service, I mean they gave me plenty of tools to deal with a multitude of situations (including depression/being overwhelmed), but I guess I really miss the structure and so forth. ECT? Damn, my uncle had Alpha brain wave scans done. Long story short: He still wears a pink dressing gown and greets his neighbours each morning holding a tomahawk due to the fact that he’s adamant they’ve been hurting his cats.
Well, good luck with it anyway.
Hahaha. That’s great. I have my consultation appointment on the 24th. Hopefully I can do it ASAP.
Thanks for bringing up ECT, hope it works for you, i might look more into it since medication doesn’t really help me, as for the questions
1. I think it is because people it’s the easiest part to cut, some cut on the inside part of the legs so people won’t see it, but the arms/wrists is kinda… standard i guess?
2. Usually people put off suicide for several reasons… to avoid harming their loved ones, because something is giving them a bit of hope, they still enjoy some things, afraid of failing suicide, afraid of what comes (or doesn’t) after death… i have to say all of those have played a part on me still being here. Most of those reasons have vanished for me tho… so maybe ECT is really an option (regardless of the possible complications).
My dad committed suicide in 2003… for 6 months after that my world was ripped apart and it was just unbelievable blackness every day. In total it took me 5 years to feel ok again. During that whole period it would be non-stop crying for 3 days about once every 2 ~ 4 weeks. It was a hard road to hoe but the next 5 years after that were a lot better…
1. I do cut my arms and wrists, but also lots of other places, such as belly, hips, legs, feet, and more (uhm, almost everywhere to be honest) And I really don’t like it if people find out I cut, so I’m trying to hide it very well, but there’ll always become a point people will see it, on your belly too, if you wear a bikini or so. But I mostly cut on my arm and wrists, because it’s easy to start cutting there (just roll up your sleeves) and it gives me the best feeling, none of the other places I tried gave me the same or better feeling than on my arms. Plus if I cut, I’m totally in a trance, and it feels like I can’t control it, so I can’t control where I cut too. And yeah, it sucks that it’s hard to cover, but I guess I should never started cutting then.
2. Believe me, you get used to it. And although I still have suicidal thoughts (like every day), I know I’m less impulsive then I was in the beginning of my depression.
Really hope for you ECT is going to work.