Its nights like these that I really fucking miss what we had. Holy shit we clicked like I never had with anyone else. I miss laying bed with you watching anime or some other lame ass shit on your lap top. Then making trips at 1 am to the store and picking up $40 worth of junk food. I wonder if you give a shit all the time. That maybe if I gave you a call or a text maybe we could try again. I know that will never happen, but it feels good thinking about it. Sometimes I wish I didnt have these memories at all, that way I couldnt compare it to sitting alone in misery all night. Â Im very curious how youre going to ask forgiveness of the dead.
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Your post kinda got to me, because i got some similar memories of my exgf. Good memories are a double edged sword sadly. They bring up wonderful times, but won’t let you live the present and move into the future if you hold on to them too much. Maybe in the future you might be living the same thing with someone else and it won’t have to end, who knows.
Hes not the only reason it has to end. But I understand what youre saying, its just I dont think ill be able to connect like that with anyone else on the planet.
I figured that much, it’s rarely as simple as just missing someone (to end up in some place like SP i mean). And i guess you are right regarding the connection part too, i don’t see myself getting attached to anyone else anytime soon (been like a year already). But you really never know, and you are really young. Many things can change (specially due to your age) and that sort of connection just happens at times, even if you are not looking for it. Hope the other things that are bothering you change as well.
Wait, how do you know my age? And I know they can. But ive been trying to make a friend as hard as I can. I just want to meet someone, it used to be so fucking easy. Being isolated just wares on your heart.
It’s in your biography info (it’s visible when you click in your nickname, along with the posts you’ve made), i usually check at least one previous post before commenting so i won’t say something out of line or without even knowing the person’s situation, no bad intention there. And yup, isolation can mess you up a lot, maybe you’re trying too hard tho? some people get defensive when they see someone else being too friendly or forcing a friendship.
No, its not that simple. I rarely get any social contact at all. Ive been searching everywhere for some sort of youth club that I can join. The problem is, the vast majority of them are religion based.
You could always join any youth club, even if you don’t care much about it, and get out of it once you’ve met people, not a bad option.