Yep, subject says it all.
I can’tseem to do anything right. From making friends, to caring about my family, yep, I fail.
I got in a fight with my younger brother, and well, I’m not too violent, but I hit the punk. If I can hit a sibling of mine, how will I treat my future wife or kids? I’d rather not think about that. When I make friends, they always seemed to be troubled, and in the end, bring me down. I feel so awfull, because I can’t even save them. If it is not possible for me to save anyone in life, why live? If it wasn’t for me not knowing about the after life, I would have played the suicide card a long time ago.
I never understood why people cut, but now I’m thinking I’m starting to understand.
One day I’m gonna lose the war.
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I don’t know about your reasons, but if you are not violent as you say, you must have had some pretty good reasons to hit your brother. And to be honest i see most brothers beating each other up for the smallest things so it’s not that uncommon at all, and doesn’t mean you will end up being someone who beats up their family in a daily basis.
And i think it’s good that you have good intentions towards others but even if you do everything to help someone, that person has to help himself as well, you can’t do everything for them, so unless they put a real effort on their part don’t blame yourself for not being able to save them… it’s not your obligation and most people wouldn’t even try.
For what it’s worth i think at least you are trying and care for others, and you keep on fighting the war as you say. And that’s better than doing nothing at all.