As I’ve told you in my previous posts, I’m a nihilist.Meaning I don’t think there’s good or evil, morality, value, ethics and right and wrong, I think that all of this is subjective, and therefore cannot change any objective aspect, I don’t believe that anything like that is real, necessary or effective.Also, I think that the universe is indifferent towards our existence, our lives are but an ephemeral meaningless exercise of futility.Then I try to act indifferently.I TRY, but I can’t get rid of most of my emotions.Today was a living hell, this day couldn’t get worse.Everything simply went wrong, I feel like the world is falling upon me, and I’m crying like a little baby, I’m so fragile and sensible.I won’t pretend I’m strong, I’m sooooo weak, I’m not a man.
I’d give everything for hug and a cuddle now, and a cup of milk with cookies or icecream would be appreciated too
aaaaaahhhh :'(
aaaahhhh :-C
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I’ve met plenty of strong women in my life. Y’all tend to have much more mental fortitude than men, even then I’ve seen some chicks smash out more press ups than a man (oh Lawd that’s awesome.) Don’t go giving up because you were blessed with womanly parts as opposed to our man pieces – embrace it and feel proud knowing that most men will cave into your dainty ways anyhow.
Well, it’s a shame you’re [insert unfathomable distance here] as I’m sure myself/others would love to provide all of that for you. Especially the cookies – I do the best cookies this side of the Pacific Ocean 🙂 Swap the milk with warm cocoa, and Bob’s your uncle.
Kira,
I don’t necessarily believe there is a “master plan”. But I have never been able to accept the theory that such complex intellectual and emotional beings magically evolved from pond sludge. That being said, I do my best to accept whatever others believe (or not) to be perfectly valid if it works for them. I only believe there is something of a higher order I do not understand.
We are bonded to each other in some spiritual way. And I feel that you need that bond with someone right now, maybe more than ever. It can be a terribly painful experience when we need to trust others or allow someone to embrace us when we are vulnerable or hurting. It’s a leap of faith sometimes and it can be horribly difficult if the people close to us that should be putting their arms around us can’t or won’t. And I know you feel so alone right now. I just hope that you someone you can ultimately trust reaches out to you – and that will happen if you can love yourself just enough to accept it. I wish you well – just try and hang on.
For me, I prefer a good Kentucky bourbon over milk and cookies…