Since im living this horrible pain, i certainly could realize how cruel the destiny plays his game.. it goes like that: the right person comes in the right moment into your life, and  everything is disposed for teaching you how inevitable disgraces and mistakes are.. something is clear for me: it is not my fault, but at the same time, it is certainly my fault in a way.. that is the painfullest thing: it is like the miracle of the life, with all his unstoppable suffering.. at the end, you are just naked, looking into your empty hands, with no way to set free your frustration, precisely because it was not in your hands to avoid the suffering – however you cannot deal with this guilt-feeling.. losing the woman of your life is like losing a child, horribly tragic, but beyond your human powers and above all: it is not possible to understand at all..
The pain is not gone yet, but i am not in my suicide-crisis anymore. I wish i had taken my life at the right moment, so i would not be there to live with her absence, and to see her moving on with this other guy.. but i will wait for the next moment of pain, some day. I will figure out how to get my ******** online, life has simply no meaning without her.
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If you are not together, would it stand to reason that she may not have been the right one? Perhaps she was a learning experience, a chance for you to learn that true love can never be realized until you are able to stand on your own two feet, and in some ways, even learn to love yourself?
Breakups are wretched things to have to survive, but even on your worst day you survived. So, if you think about it, you’ve already won. You are stronger than the pain…. a survivor.
I have seen that kind of thing happen. When I was a child, across the street were two old people. The Guys wife died of a medical complication and like 2 weeks later he went out and killed himself because he lost her. Some people cant go on without their love.
If you are young enough, start over. If not, and you got no one, its the better option to end it all and say “enough of life”.
great words, great strength coming through it, thank you very much.. so you say loving yourself is the Key for loving anybody.. I think we had all thought about it, but just this kind of painful experiences can teach you the real meaning of standing on your own two feet. and yes, i also think im already a survivor, i hope it stays like that for longer..