Logic Of My Friends…. What?

Okay so this has been bugging me for a while now….   I don’t really have people to talk to about it so I guess this is my best place to get it out.

When I was in elementary school I was exactly the same as I am now, passive aggressive though it was probably worse back then.  I didn’t talk to anyone and I was super shy.  Around third grade I ended up befriending this girl, lets call her L.  So L ended up becoming my best friend.  But around the end of fifth grade she started ignoring me.  She ignored me for the rest of the year, all summer, and part of sixth grade.  She even got my few other friends to ignore me to.  By the time I finally got her talking to me again was when she told me why she did that.  She said that everyone is “Magic” and we are both vampires.  The only difference being I was evil… What?!  A passive aggressive kid being an evil vampire…  Yep, that makes perfect sense!  Anyway, being little old me who loved believing in that type of stuff I was desperate to be her friend again so I believed her.  I don’t remember how but eventually I became “Good” and we became friends again.  Until eighth grade that is.  At the beginning of eighth grade a new girl moved to our school and we are going to call her L2 because she shared the same name as my best friend, only spelled differently.  Because of that similarity they became best friends instantly and I became the third wheel.  Half way through the year L2 started harrassing me during Team Time (recesses) she would chase me around the playground (L2 is a big girl so it was terrifying to little me) and smash me into the brick wall.  L didn’t do anything about it except laugh because she thought I was having fun or whatever.  After that I pulled away from them, I stopped talking to them and I sat alone at lunch.  The only reason L came back to me was because L2 did some stuff to L that I don’t know or remember.  What about now?  Now for whatever reason I’m “friends” with BOTH of them.  Well I’m not friends with L2 but I’m polite enough to her.  As for L, we aren’t best friends like we use to be but we are friends.  L is even protective of me!!!  I mean…. WHAT?  I have a boyfriend that I’m very close to and I met him a while ago at the same L did.  Because we were at this acting thing and he was there and yeah.  But she threatened him!  THREATENED him!!!  She said if he hurt me she’ll hurt him because of all the times guys have hurt me…  What? After all the times she hurt me, she’ll hurt HIM if he hurts me ONCE?  Where is the logic in that and I’m ranting again…

I think thats enough of me ranting because if I continue I know I’ll apologize and I’m trying not to do that even though I really want to….  Thats a long sentence….  Yeah, I’m stopping here before I do something stupid.