I guess I’m here because I’ve lost hope in the world. We’re in an oligarchy controlled by those who have the money and/or power to control not only the US, but the rest of the world. The money buys politicians who drill obedience into unstoppable armies. Even if the electorate stopped being complacent, there’s nothing to be done.
I just feel powerless.
I don’t want to see it continue any further.
Can anyone convince me that it’ll get better? If not, why bother drifting through a meaningless life?
I guess the thing that keeps me from doing it is not wanting to hurt family and friends, and my obligation to pay off all my debts before I go. I’m an honest person and don’t want to owe anyone anything.
The best idea that I have is to slowly isolate myself from friends once I’ve taken care of my debts. Making sure no one I care about notices when I’m gone. Then, properly quitting any occupation I might have soon before any lease I have expires, basically eliminating anyone who may be look for me.
The trickiest part is how to do it. I’m considering the detergent method as the quickest, combining it with an exit bag by putting the mixture into an ice cream tub and drilling one hole to add in the HCl with a funnel, and another hole for the tube going into the bag.
As for the location, I would think that the best way to conceal my body would be to do the operation in the middle of the woods in a hole, under a tarp and a thin layer of mulch covered by foliage. If possible, a swamp would be ideal to mask the sulfuric smell.
I’m not sure if this plan will ever come to fruition, but it’s comforting to know that I have one.