this is me. ive changed so much learned so much. been through so much. ive tried more suicide attempts than i can actually count. everyone goes through shit. everyone feels like theres nothing left in life. but thats okay. everyone is stronger than they think. and thats why ive been on this site for 2 years, come so close to death a few times. but maybe im still here for a reason? were still here for a reason. sadly, life’s complications push you down, i go day by day, feeling not good enough. feeling incredibly ugly, and im sure im not alone on this feeling. everyday is a new day. face forward not backward be strong. ive gone on, not fully, but im better than i was, strength, love, courage, and will, gets you through.
now this seems like a pointless ramble and shifted from different topics, no, in a way im hoping i give words of encouragement. everyone is strong, just keep reaching on. (: it will get better.
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Coming from a person whose depression is rooted in physical attraction, from this picture, I don’t think you’re ugly in the least.
Hi, let me second that, you are far from ugly and believe me I can be very judgmental about people’s looks. I think you’re pretty but the picture you took isn’t flattering.
I think you feel ugly because you have low self-esteem based on whatever is going in your life right now. Self-esteem is a very powerful feeling-it’s something I struggle with also, but the minute you start believing you’re a loser, then you open yourself up to other people hating on you and so forth.
In my case life used to be good but then went to shit. I missed out on many incredible opportunities with dating hot girls. There are days I’d gladly just end it all. If I could sum it up in a word, my life has always been about lack-never having enough money, not getting things others had and now my life has mostly passed me by-in my early 40s now. I’m still trying to turn things around, I’ve pulled off some miracles in my life before so I think I could reach the success I wanted but I lack the drive I used to have-still trying though.
Anyways, we’ll see where things go. My family and friends still manage to keep me somewhat happy and that’s why I’m here. If I hit rock-bottom once more in my life as I did about 5 years ago, then that’ll be the last straw for me. Also if I don’t get anywhere by the time I’m in my 50s then I’m ending it.
curious why you posted your pic on here………… are you looking for dates? Yea you are pretty, but it has been my experience and observation what women who like to show their looks are the self centered type. Just saying.
Your a pretty lady. But what exactly is your point in posting your picture here, I thought selfies were for Facebook.
There is no reason.
holy shit..whatever happened to the old sp?? ive posted one other picture of me on here 2 years ago. thats it. IM NOT LOOKING FOR ATTENTION, IM NOT LOOKING FOR LOVE. IM DOINGG NOTHING BUT SHOWING PEOPLE WHO I AM. i never did anything to violate any rules here so why the fuck is everyone flipping over the fact that i posted a pic?? calm down. if you read more of my posts maybe it will make more sense. ive had severe self image issues, that doesnt make me shy and awkward and afraid of my picture going on the web so dont even go there, the fact that you guys compliment me which i thank you for, but then to go and say “whats the purpose?” get the hell over it! k? its a pic. its not revealing. its just my face. so calm down. its really not a big deal so why does it have to bother you? god damn.
The subconscious reason you posted this I think is that being attractive absolutely gains favoring and creates biases, depending on how much closer you resemble the cultural epitome of attractiveness or how far away. By posting your picture you created a bias, that people will listen to you more and empathize, sympathize and listen to you more, statistically and through my own experience someone who is “beautiful” absolutely receives for more attention than someone who isn’t. I’m personally not a fan of people posting their pictures here because there’s no reason. If you want people to know what you look like, email them, posting your picture is well… showing off.
You hit the nail squarely on the head.
what you look like has nothing to do with your suicide story. If you’re depressed because you dont like how you look, why would you post it?? if you’ve overcome your low self esteem and you like how you look, you dont need other people to see what you look like unless you want attention, which is what I think is annoying. It’s like posting your picture on the wall of a busy hallway, what’s the point except wanting people to see what you look like? Why would you want anyone to see what you look like? It doesn’t matter!
okay, I’ll be honest, I’m just really jealous of what you look like, I’d kill to look like you lol
Sorry I don’t mean to offend you. I just hate it because this place is looking more and more like facebook everyday in everyway this site is so you can remain anonymous. I really did want to know what is the driving motivation for the pic though. Do you want compliments? Do you want people to see your physical beauty? You know it’s a simple question it was nothing to get upset about but now I get it you used to have self esteem issues and now you proud of who you are and what you look like!
I kind of wonder how you’d react if someone had commented something “worse” (rather, more offending to you). Since you seem to have a history of self-image issues I’d assume you’d be more cautious with showing your face.
Well let’s be honest here-why are babies cute? So that humans will take care of them. The brutal reality is that ugliness turns us off while prettiness encourages us to want to nurture. So I’ll be blunt, if the person complaining about their life is ugly-I probably won’t really care about them too much-though I can still be supportive. If they’re attractive I will probably be more helpful. It’s just human nature.
@secondlife: that’s a very narrow and grossly simplistic view of an extremely complex subject.
Explain.
Personally, I think babies are pretty ugly. I usually ignore the way people look, too, but that’s just me. And it’s nothing personal, I just don’t really care about it very much. Unless they have an arm growing out of their face or something – I might spend more time talking to someone like that due to pure curiosity.
Ya I was speaking in general terms. Like if you car broke down on the side of the road, who’s more likely to get help-a hot blonde or a short, fat, ugly bald guy? Beauty is an advantage in life.
At the same time though I’ve known some people that others might consider to be very attractive but they have ugly personalities…and vice versa.
@secondlife: I think that’s totally dependent on the person’s values and what they want to get from the encounter. It’s true that a lot of people probably do have biases that lead them to make distinctions like that, but other people might or might not stop for anyone they see broken down on the side of the road, regardless of what they look like. Drives and motivations are complicated and hard to untangle, especially from an evolutionary perspective.
They really need an Edit button….I mean if a car broke down and the person inside was ugly or attractive, etc.
Hello, Fakingit. I am glad you posted your pic, and I get that you did it for identification, not attention. You are very pretty, by the way. It could be that one purpose for you is that you encourage the rest of us. Day by day I have improved a little, through meds and through counseling. But the improvement is that life is just bearable, whereas before I got my meds, I was about ready to call it quits myself. Now I look at suicide as a thing, an option, that I have should things get worse. But in a way I am afraid of committing suicide, just in case I do not finish the job and in up as a fully conscious “vegetable” in some nursing home. But in a strange way, knowing that I can pull the plug at anytime, so to speak, is in itself therapeutic. You have your whole life ahead and I hope you do find your way out of this depression some day.