Days like today make me recount the week that I was hospitalized and my mother was the ONLY person who visited me, aside from my fiancee, who expressed the entire time how much he didn’t want to be there and constantly found excuses to go do stuff somewhere else. I’m so lonely. I’m not sure what it is about me that just repulses people. Nobody acts like they truly want to spend time with me. Right now I’m sitting alone at my kitchen table while I watch all of my fiancee’s friends play the new Mario Kart 8. There’s nowhere for me to sit and they haven’t even asked if I want to play or made room for me anywhere. It’s been this way the past three days. I get depressed so easily and so lonely, I want to just die. His friends also make me feel worthless. They walk all over me and I try to be nice and make them brownies and food.Â
I should probably kick them all out, I know, but I’m just too nice. It’s hard for me to kick people out of my house. Anyway, I’m too lonely. Nobody would notice if I died.
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That’s just crazy, but too typical. Marry a man, not a boy. And please don’t kill yourself.
I’m sorry that they are being dicks to you. I think you should tell your fiancé how you feel about his friends and the way they treat you. You don’t deserve to be tested like shit, let alone in your own house. Stand up for yourself and your feelings love. You are human and you are hurting. So someone needs to show you love before it’s too late. Because those feelings you’re having are strong and will most likely won’t go away without some tlc from love ones and yourself. 🙂
Just be strong , one day everything will be just fine 🙂
Read Natalie Lue’s articles about healthy relationships. It is called baggage reclaim. Get back your life and stop donating it to people who are not on board with your hopes and dreams.