Ok, a few years out of high school I decided that I was ready to die. Things weren’t bad, I had a job that put a little money in my pocket, I had a great car and I was dating a girl who was fun to be with, but still I was just ready to go. Then I meet a new girl that I fell in love with. I figured she wouldn’t stay with me for to long, there was a bit of an age gap between us. So I figured I would ride it out and see how I felt when she finally moved on. It lasted 7 and a half years. Then she left (she’s now married, has a kid and won’t talk to me any more). While I was with her, I came to accept that fact that I am transgendered and she was fine with it but due to financal problems I was never able to transition. After another 7 years I’m more or less fine again, until this week. On Monday I recived a rejection letter from a company that I had applied to and which I REALLY want to work for, then today I was layed off from the crap ass job that I had been working for about a month. Currently I am single, live at home with my mom & step-dad, whom I feel like I’m only a burden on, and can not drive due to more financial reasons, which, had I been able to hold down this job, I might have been able to fix. I have to stay in the closet about being trans because my step-dad is kinda old school and if (now apparently when) they kick me out, I’ll be homeless too and all this less than a month before my 35th Birthday. There has to be something better out there and I’d love to see what’s on the other side, it would HAVE to be better than this! Thanks for taking the time to read all of this!
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Not to sure what to say but what I can do is commend you on is finding a significant other and lasting 7.5 years!. I’m a single male,late 20’s that owns his own home with a +100k a year job and I didn’t have a relationship that lasted more than 6 months!. I’m extreamly lonely. So I know this is going to sound funny but I do envy you for finding someone even if it didn’t last forever. That’s one think that was going for you 🙂
I guess we can say we are on the same sidewalk but opposite ends? :). Either way, I hope things work out for you!
I got to say I envy you for the job and the house, then I would at least be able to start transitioning, plus this week I’ve been argueing with stuff falling apart because I can’t afford to fix or replace it.