Non Existence is the real suicide

Hello People

i was searching for the word suicide and bumped into this website, and it seems helpful to speak about my suicidal tendencies.

Ok, so i believe in reincarnation, so for me suicide will not get me what i want , which is total non existence , it is like living in an prison and sentenced to live in it for eternity , if i die i reincarnate in that same prison over and over . And you beg for your own execution , but souls are eternal and can’t be destroyed with any weapon.

So, my aim is not the earthly suicide ( killing your body ) , rather a spiritual suicide, but i know GOD will never agree on such a thing . Don’t i have the freedom to choose whether to exist or not ? i am not against the wise plan GOD made for every human soul that will lead to its own retribution , but its is my own soul and i wish i have the freedom to let it exist or not .

I know i am now leaning more towards philosophy more than psychology , but that is how i think and i wanted to share it with others , because frankly no one thinks that way but me 🙁

Thanks for reading 🙂