AN: I just joined this website and this was something that I wrote a while back when I was down.I don’t happen to have any mental disorders or abnormalities and the disorders written in here are merely words that flowed into my mind when I was down. I don’t mean to offend anyone here , I’m just sharing my poem. It’d be great if anyone replied though…
The horrors of my mind,
they haunt my days and night.
I’m afraid to close my eyes,
for I know that it is there where they reside.
I’m so empty that it scares me.
Purplish bruises form below my eyes,
I hardly sleep
and yet I am alive.
Night terrors,
Insomnia,
Depression and manic episodes.
I laugh like mad, and turn into a sobbing mess.
Tell me ,
is this my mind playing tricks on me?
I want to go back but I can’t,
for I’ve long forgotten who I was.
Schizophrenia,
Obsessive compulsive disorder,
Borderline disorder and dissociated personalities.
Someone help me.
But here I am laughing at my plight,
my futile efforts turning into a game for my own amusement,
would someone please,
end my life?
5 comments
Hello
so don’t wonder so much cause I read it!
Hello
so don’t wonder so much cause I read it!
and… Don’t pray to end your life If you search you will find a reason I don’t say it because I don’t know what are you saying I knew because I was like you but one day I started to searching and I found something and someone and a reason and suddenly I wasn’t sad and aimless and empty of any thing to continue my awful life. I’m sure there is a reason to create us to be and you can find that.
suicide is the easiest way but you cannot reach the best if you choose easy things.
If you like it’s my mail address: i.have.a.question48 at gmail dot com
Thank you for commenting. The truth is that I’ve been suffering sleepless nights and depressing thoughts recently and I just slip in and out of it at times. I’m really glad that you commented because I was starting to think that I am useless. A person huh… I’m afraid of commitment too, I hurt the people I love and I feel so horrid and guilty for that. Self loathing comes most of the time that’s why I don’ t voice my heart out to others for fear of causing them worry.
Good poem. Thanks for sharing. I have a comment on the last line “would someone please end my life’.
I wonder if you’re looking for someone to end your life, then maybe you’re also looking for someone to save your life. The tricky part is that there is only one person that can save or end your life. You.
Haha , thanks for picking that out. I’m extremely happy that you did and you also commented. I’m a little bipolar in the sense that my thoughts always contradict and go against each other. I do know that the person that can save me is only myself but it’s oddly weird that I feel a sense of discomfort throwing away what twisted ,dark and depressing thoughts I have left for it feels as though I’ll become a void existence.it feels as though depressed and repressed thoughts have become a part of me and without it , I am not myself.