General 38 Days to Go by Counting Down the Years 7/1/2014 written by Counting Down the Years 7/1/2014 My heart is breaking for my daughter. She has no idea how her world is about to change in a few weeks. Please pray for her. world 16 comments 0 Email Related posts Burnt out exhausted and zero pleasure in life 12/7/2023 TIME 12/7/2023 The insurance assessor… 12/7/2023 Just another day…maybe 12/7/2023 sittin, thinkin, plottin 12/7/2023 . 12/6/2023 Breaking 12/5/2023 Director of Information Security 12/5/2023 Super Screwed 12/4/2023 paranoia and light in the dark 12/4/2023 16 comments buscetti 7/1/2014 - 12:33 am If there is one kind of pain I truly will never heal from, it’s that of not having a parent. Yeah my dad may be there physically, and sometimes I wish he wasn’t….but still, he isn’t there and it hurts. Now take a look at your daughter and try to imagine yourself as her, without you. A child without their parent(s) figuratively is painful enough, but literally not having a parent, imagine that type of pain. I know I’m one to talk because I too am suicidal, but I guess I just have a thing for parents abandoning their kids, especially this way. I’m going to pray for you. Pray for yourself too. It isn’t selfish. Please think about this. A child needs their parents. No matter how old they are. Log in to Reply blindaudio 7/1/2014 - 12:37 am Buscetti, I second this here. You basically said all I was going to. Log in to Reply nias 7/1/2014 - 12:43 am Sorry Counting_down, I’d hoped you would have changed you mind as the time gets closer, just for your daughter who you love so much, you are a nice person caught in a difficult position with difficult people to deal with, I do hope you will change you mind and just vent your frustrations here. Log in to Reply Igor A. 7/1/2014 - 1:07 am Having children is a lifelong commitment, that’s why I won’t have any. Log in to Reply Counting Down the Years 7/1/2014 - 1:14 am Thanks for your posts, guys. I’ve held on this long only because of my daughter, as you already know. I’ve tried to see things from her perspective, but because my parents were so cold and so unkind I can’t feel what it’s like to have a healthy emotional attachment to a parent. All these years I’ve been telling myself that I don’t have to understand, just believe it exists for her. But my supply of optimism has run out. I’m 50 years old and it hasn’t really gotten better, yet, despite a lifetime of concerted effort. Log in to Reply nias 7/1/2014 - 2:36 am Counting, you helped me by getting me to talk about my problems which I can do more now than ever before and outside SP. I so want to help you, you said you wanted to wait until your daughter has reached 18 or so, is there anyway you can do this, I know things are hard for you but I’m 45 and have little in the way of a life although your circumstances are different to mine, I know that but if someone came on here and posted what you have, you’d encourage them to keep going for their daughter and for themselves. Please spend the next 38 days to at least try and find a way forward and to think about this, I know you’ve tried but please keep trying although it’s your decision, that’s all I can ask, tell me to butt out if you want but I’ve followed your posts you’re a caring person and I care about you, Ni. Log in to Reply takeeverything 7/1/2014 - 3:04 am You know, looking back, I think you’re over romanticising this. And how can you say your heart is breaking for her when you’re planning such a nasty little surprise? You’re just going to leave her to Mr. ‘Rape Museum’ then? Counting, you have a brain and I think overall you’re really cool, you seem a little nutty though, although no nuttier than my mean-spirited faux victim/willing know-nothing mother, and I’d gladly trade her for you any day. (I know that’s my mother, but..) I’m 19, so this considering the fact that you’re old enough to have been my mother. Well, just food for thought. Log in to Reply Counting Down the Years 7/1/2014 - 1:47 pm You’re right. You’re right. Log in to Reply Counting Down the Years 7/1/2014 - 1:53 pm And thank you for your kind words. I wish I could have been your mom. Log in to Reply ItsASecretShh 7/1/2014 - 3:56 am Why would you want to do that to your kid.. Log in to Reply takeeverything 7/1/2014 - 4:29 am Well it’s not as if she wants to cause that kind of pain in her daughter, she has expressed regret here. Log in to Reply clevername 7/1/2014 - 4:43 am i can be absurd too! “Why wouldn’t you?” Log in to Reply takeeverything 7/1/2014 - 2:32 pm 😛 Log in to Reply takeeverything 7/1/2014 - 2:40 pm that was supposed to be a toungue sticking out… uhhhm. @itsasecret It’s not entirely unimaginable that a parent has considered suicide, they are human too, outside of their roles of as parents. My grandfather on my fathers’ side commited suicide in his basement by hanging… it messed him up pretty bad. I was told that everyone blamed him for his death, he was about grade school age. He ended up as an alchoholic and eventually drank his way into a coma, not before being driven off by my goon of a mother, so I never got to meet him. Log in to Reply MomLove 7/1/2014 - 9:19 am I completely understand! I’ve lost everything, my home, and now both of my daughters to my x husband who is a 30 year partner with a major Dallas law firm, a millionaire, a narcissistic sex addict, I spent all of my money fighting him in court, then he pulled the most evil thing and went for full custody, and I just found out that the lawyer appointed for my girls has sided with him! He even has a criminal record! He has had someone poison my beloved dogs, one three weeks ago and one last year. I’m now living off of my retired parents, I was a stay ay home mom for 20 years, and I’ve got some nice things in a crap Dallas highrise apt and not one penny to my name. No more money to fight this evil bastard, the next step is a full blown custody trial, $50-$100,000 maybe? My divorce cost $270,000. If you include all, the jewelry I had to sell to keep the legal machine fighting to protect my children and me. Now it’s like, sorry, no money, no help. Your children will be abused and have the shit beat out of them but you are not together, you are hysterical he’s a wealthy attorney….and there is nothing more I can do. I certainly can not stick around to see them go through hell and not be able to do anything about it. I can barely breathe as it is. Not having my babies is the worst thing a mother could ever go through. My date of exit is soon. I feel your pain sister, my family turned their backs on me because they are all scared of this man, he’s a bully, he should have been stripped of his law license when he was arrested for solicitation of a Dallas Police officer. He constantly lies under oath, but he’s own because I can’t afford to play his games. I hope he will be happy. I can’t say publicly anything about him, expose his disgusting secrets like the fact that he’s really gay and hangs out in the gay bath hours and cruises for sex…he’s on the Catholic Charity Foundation! But everyone in Dallas will know soon. And maybe then the fucking courts will listen, maybe then they will step up and protect my girls! Log in to Reply Counting Down the Years 7/1/2014 - 1:52 pm Even my husband isn’t THAT much of an asshole. The more influence they have, the meaner they are. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.