Hello, my name is Chelsea.. I’m 12. My whole life I have been told I have a gift. That i was special and smart and the total opposite of average. It doesn’t matter anymore, i havent made an impact yet and other kids younger than me already have. Everything hs gone downhill since my parents divorced when I was 3. I’ve lived with my mom in a cheap apartment until a drunk driver + an 18-wheeler totaled our car in an accident. I turned 10, My mom quit her job to care for me, since she couldn’t drive to her job. We finally moved into a house with my dad. We were a family again, I was extremely happy. My parents argued and argued and it was frustrating that they couldn’t get along. My sister was finally out of the hospital and the tension ceased for a while. Not even a year later, my mom took me and kennedy and moved 4 hours away until a new city with my grandmother. We have to from city to city for hospitals for my sister. I don’t talk to my mom or dad that much anymore, and when I do I yell at them. I hate yelling at them but I’m so angry at why I’m in this situation. Recently my mom took me to court to take care of their second divorce which kills me. My mom is stressed out and I feel like Im just here to take my parents money and spend it. I feel homeless and useless and i cant do anything about it. No one will just sit and give me a hug anymore and Im going insane. Im too much of a coward to go and kill myself, even though My insurance money would bless my mom and she would have way more than $24 in her pocket. I dont see how “special” or “important” i am. Im just a stupid cowardly girl who wouldnt be able to survive an hour in the world alone, so why even bother living of im completely useless, right? All I do is make everyone cry. I miss my dad. I love my mom and i dont want her to be broke anymore. I dont want her to cry. I dont want to yell at her anymore. I just want to stop being useless. I cant change anything about anything no matter how hard I try.