Im new here..and i kinda feel..

I feel a little..bleh..if you know what I mean. I have a pretty good life right now. But. I don’t like me. I hate me. I wrote a lot more explaining why but I accidentally deleted it..Oops. I would rewrite it but it’s 1am and yeah.. but suicide has kinda been on my mind for…5 years for more reasons accidentally deleted. I’m older now but still I really would like to uhm…sleep forever. So uh.. night -Someone who wanted to talk