Like everyone here, im on the ragged edge. I watched a kitten last week for my (gf/ex/dont know where were at anymore) while she was on vacation with her family. Immediately I bonded with that little kitty and it actually helped me to feel a little bit better about things. Just having that companion to come home to. Knowing she was waiting for me. Her chasing me around the house attacking my leg. So I told my mom and sister about it and asked them to keep an eye out for one for me thinking maybe it will help. Today, after work, my sister told me to come over and my mom had went to the shelter and got me a 2.5 month old kitty. He is very sweet and you can tell he just wants to be loved but, Im not getting that bonding feeling with him. I feel horrible. All he wants is to be loved. Hes very cuddly and a playful but im just not feeling that connection I did with the other one. I dont know what to do. I dont want to say anything to my mom and make her feel bad because I know she tried and just wants to help me be happy but at the same time, I feel bad for the cat because I dont know if I will be able to give him the love and attention he craves and deserves. I mean its not like I would neglect him but it just doesnt feel the same as it did with the other kitten. I cant ever win. No matter what I try to do, no matter where I try to turn, I cant ever win. Im in tears writing this because I feel like such a worthless asshole about everything.