Can the pain just stop, can it just FUCKEN stop for fucks sake. Can I get a chance to breathe can I catch a FUCKEN break?!!! Why, why the fuck do all these issues have to pile up why does life have to be so FUCKEN hard???! I swear times like this death seems like the right way to go. I genuinely try, I try so FUCKEN hard but life doesn’t get any easier. I carry around this FUCKEN pain and there’s nothing I can do to get rid of it!!! Because this pain is from the relazation of how fucked up life is!!! How I can’t save myself how I can’t save the people I love. How the love I do feel for a special person is doomed to failure. I can live with it, with this pain life can go on I can find someone else. But what’s the FUCKEN point if everything in life ends?? Why build new happiness if the end result is more pain?? Fuck me right I deserve all this shit I’m a terrible person….