Maybe she is the smart one. Maybe I am just rotten inside. Maybe I was so horrible to her that she cant forgive me. I didnt think I was. I loved her with everything I am but maybe the stupid mistakes I made were that horrible. She is better off without me. I dont deserve anyone, especially her. She is amazing. I am nothing. I mean why would anyone want to be with someone who cuts themselves? She should run away. Run far away Bonney. Get away from this monster you were with. She deserves happiness and I cant give that to her. She wants me to leave her alone and I dont think I can. The only way for me to let her move on is to not be here anymore. The only way she will find peace from me is if I give up and leave this stupid world that I dont deserve to be in. Dont worry my love, soon enough you will have your wish. I will try to make it quick so you can move forward. I wont be the thorn in your side or the cause of your stress anymore. Know that I’m going to do this for you. Because I love you. Because you deserve so much more in this life. You are wonderful and the world is so much better because you are in it.