Hi. My name is Katelyn Hill. I’m now 16 years old and attending high school in York region.
Id like to share my Suicide story with you,
Since I was little my dad was abusive (Verbally, Physically and emotionally)he was/is a alcoholic and a drug user. when I was growing up he lost his job. and he was home all the time. my mom was scared to come home most of the time so it was just me and him at home often. in 2010 me and him got into a large fight and no one else was home. about 40 minutes later i heard him yelling my name and just felt like something was wrong so i went down the the basement. the first thing i saw was on the pool table around 10 empty bottles of pills and my dad was lying on the couch trying to tell me he was going to die. trying to tell me that he took a bunch of pills trying to overdose because of me. I just sat beside him i couldn’t move to get the phone to call 9-1-1 i sat there and screamed. as he was dosing off my mom and brother came in and when she heard me screaming she instantly ran down stairs and yelled to my brother to get me out of there. she called 9-1-1 for me. and he friend to come sit with me and my grandparents for me to stay with. and they rushed him to the hospital. H e survived.
before that i had been cutting since i was in grade 5 (2008) because of the abuse.
May 26th 2012. was the day i officially attempted suicide. it was a okay day. i just got sick of everything. my mom was out and my brother and his girlfriend were up stairs . it again was just me and my dad at home. he asked me if i wanted to have French fries with him for dinner i said yes but i was going for a walk first. i don’t even know what triggered it. but i walked into the garage and grabbed a rope and shoved it in my track pants and walked away. i texted my best friend Ryan and told him what i was going to do.
i tied a double nuce around my next. and texted both my mom dad and brother that i loved them and that i am sorry. i tied the rope around the tree which took a little while and took some deep breaths, finally after about ten minutes i jumped. i was lucky my dad and brother felt there was something wrong with hat text and the instantly came searching. my family friend Mike Manning and Peyton were at the bridge maybe a minute away and they told my dad that they saw a blonde girl in the forest but wasn’t sure what she was doing. they found me 7 seconds before i was gone. i don’t remember anything just what my brother my dad and my brothers girlfriend told me. i was hospitalized for a long time.
I now admit i have a problem with drinking and drug use. I am scared head to toe. even scars on my face from cutting so deep.. I don’t know how to deal with the judgement. but i’m still alive.. that’s what matters right.
i’ve been with current boyfriend for 6 months and he has helped me…
I owe my life to My dad, brother, tori, Cody, mike, peyton and Ryan <3 i love you guys thank you
this is my story..
i’m still fighting this battle everyday weather people realize or not