Need help

Hi guys. So, uhm, I’ve been very distraught lately. For the last 6 years I’ve had depression but it really started hitting me last year. Around April, my family turned their back on me. I live with my cousin, sister and grandmother. My cousin wanted to move out and she needed an excuse, so she said I abused her. I had to be forced to move away multiple times from April-September during that time. Also a lot of my closest friends have turned their backs too. I went to a lot of them for help and they all rejected me and this year i made new friends but the same thing occurred. I really feel like crap because I’m so kind and friendly to everyone but I’m always hurt. I’m always there for everyone but no one is there for me. Since February I’ve been thinking about suicide and I’ve been cutting myself a lot and I can’t sleep. I have no one to reach out to and I really want to die right now. I just want to go. I feel like there’s nothing here for me and there never was, nor will there ever be. I want to die. That’s really it. I just want to kill myself