I have no one in my life. My best friend, doesn’t make me feel like he gives a shit about me. He doesn’t even talk to me some days, but he talks to other people. It hurts a lot. My family isn’t here for me, they’re all to busy with themselves. My other friends don’t care about anyone other then themselves or their boyfriends/girlfriends. I want someone to come over and sit in my room with me and watch a movie and we can just talk about everything. How I feel, how they feel, what’s going on with our families just anything and everything. Just in the dark with the tv light glowing on our faces, eating buttered popcorn and drinking cokes. To show me that someone actually cares about me. To show that I’m not alone someone actually cares about me. Instead I sit in my room, all alone. Every night. All the time. No one would even want to. My best friend doesn’t even hang out with me.. I just want to leave out. Forever. Not have to remember the memories in my head. Not have to worry about my future. I question if anyone would care if I died. I don’t think that they would. I’ve seriously considered it many of nights. and Wonder why I didn’t do it the next morning. I just don’t know anymore. I just want to leave out.