I can’t begin to describe the hell that I’ve been put through for the last 8 months. I won’t even try. All I can say is that I have been scammed, robbed, taken for all I have/had and left to suffer the financial consequences, the shame and the betrayal. I can’t believe that someone that I helped through the worst times of their life could do this to me. Bottom line, they robbed me for close to 30k.
All I can think about is that if there was ever a time to end my life, now is it. This is rock bottom. This person has made every promise under the sun to me about repaying me, but that’s all they were, promises. Very empty ones. How can someone act this evil? This ungrateful? This selfish?
All I had left was the hope that I would be repaid. Without that, there’s no way I can manage to survive much longer. All this because I know what pain and suffering is. I showed compassion to someone and believed their words when they told me how much they appreciated my help, how they didn’t deserve it, etc. This person holds the key to my fate in their hands. I absolutely will not continue to live if he is robbing me. Financially, it will be impossible for me to hang on much longer. I will lose my home and everything else. Besides that, I just can’t endure the hurt that he put me through by using me like that. I was already extremely depressed for many years. But I still had happy moments and I still could pay bills and still had reason to live. He took all that away from me. Now I have nothing. Literally. Just anxiety, shame and depression. This… this is the final straw. I cannot go on if he is robbing me. I thought he wasn’t, but now I think that he is. Omg, I’m such an idiot. Why didn’t I just ignore his pleas for help? Why can’t I just be cold? I really f#*king hate myself and him too. He is killing me. I wish he would have just killed me after robbing me instead of promising to repay me over and over. I can’t take this daily roller coaster of hope and disappointment anymore. I just want to be 100% sure that he is really robbing me of that money before I end it all. I’m done with this terrible, evil world.