Well,I guess we’ll soon find out if I’ll live or die through this…
I just made a suicide pact with myself.I’m going in vacation back to my homecountry of Romania and,if things don’t change for the better until the end of the summer,then that’s it.It will never change for the better.It’s now or never.
I’m not even hoping that things will get better,because I know that every time I put my hopes in something,it turns into a huge and painful disappointment.Sometimes I really want something very bad to happen so I have a ”reason” to kill myself,as if I don’t already have one…
Haha,anyway,if I do commit suicide because nothing has changed for good,then I can’t wait to see my fucking relatives/family talking shit about me since I’m gone,blaming me for all bad things that ever happened to them,etc..Heheh,those fuckers will amuse my dark soul as I’ll watch them gossiping from the other side 😀
Anyways,wish me luck guys…Perhaps it’s not over yet…
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I hope you find something in Romania that gives you something to live for. Lots of good looking people and great food. Not to mention how pretty the countyside is. Thst alone could get me thru the summer!
Hi,
I just registered to ask you this: if you are originally from Romania, where are you living right now?
I’m from Austria, came across this page because I’m pretty fed up too, but hey, there are so many things that one can do in this state of agony: everything! From robbing an bank to climbing naked on the highest mountain around…
I’m curious what’s still in for me. I always wanted to ride a motorcycle but was to afraid (had a bad accident when I was 18) – now this fear has vanished: what’s the worst thing that could happen? 😉
Two years ago i started studying Philosophy. Kept my alive TWO whole years… maybe this would work for you too…
wishing you luck…
I wish you luck. Sometimes things just happen when you least expect them (and even if i don’t believe myself that things can change, i can’t deny that it does happen). Hopefully something good will come out f your trip 🙂