What do you dread most: your past, present or future?

My condolences to anyone suffering impending doom at this moment or in any moment of your lives

I would assume most people look towards the past as their failing point.
But I’m not one to keep hold of the past wether that be good or bad, eventually everything gets forgotten, and for great reasons. But if I were to say something about (A) I would have to say it was no fair given choice of mine to be born at all. I was born premature, picked on all through grade school, broke my spine, broke both my hands twice, tried to kill myself a few times, changed a dozen schools, zero friends and many lost loves, I’ve spent toooo much time alone in my life and I’ve struggled to make money and survive, ive had subtle mental and social problems my whole life, I’ve had bad eating disorders too….I can’t eat most times during the week and I’ve almost died a couple times from dehydration sickness. In many ways A&B are tied together. I missed out on a lot of my own past as well on account of bad parenting and joining a cult (of sorts). But all of what has been done is now just that..done. Moving on..
(B) is an extremely sensitive subject with me so I’d have to say I’m leaning towards B, and after all it’s my past that’s put me here ..But…I have a strength in me I’ve held for so long and I’m trying so hard to find it again to battle through these terrible times. My wife just left me and my days are so lonely. My health has been really bad, I’m always smoking, I’m over worked and under paid (as usual), I have no savings, my spine is still bad and will continue to get worse, my mental condition is so bad right now I have to stay away from people or ill go crazy (lack of a better word). And to top it all off, after all these years I have no idea who I am or where I’m going in life.
And that sums up C

You can’t look to the past for every thing and you can’t hold on to regret forever
Enjoy the moments you have now, and enjoy the little things that life gives you, and hold your chin up through all doubt and despair
The future isn’t set…it only awaits! When and where your end will come is out of your hands so there is no need to take it up in hand yourself. There is nothing to prove but to be accepting of ones own fate and to be hopeful of its outcome. You never know what the future will bring, even at times of certain death.