I’m doing this today evening. Don’t know what to do now. I packed everything I’m gonna need (not much, I won’t have a lot to carry), now I just need to get dressed and then I’m leaving but I have no idea where and how should I spend all those hours until evening. Can’t talk to anyone today because I have a big mouth and I’d just tell them everything. I regret not finding a suicide partner a few days earlier, when I was thinking about it, a day spent with another person wouldn’t be so long and boring. I miss my friends so badly right now, as if I haven’t talked to them for a month. I wish I could die with them near me, holding my hand or something. I’d like a hug now.
I get tears in my eyes occasionally. My mother fixed my bed, which somehow she broke before. Not gonna need it anymore.
Hope I won’t fail.