I lost my eldest son to suicide 7 years ago. Since then all the hopes and dreams I had have gone to hell. my daughter-in-law can’t admit to me the problems she has coping with me and the hurt I have to live with so she ignores me. This wouldn’t matter but it means I don’t get contact with my grand daughter and she doesn’t see how that hurts me. But wait there’s more: my only other son suffers from borderline personality disorder and takes everything that goes wrong in his life out on me. I lent him money 3years ago to get him out of debt because he and his partner were expecting a baby. I thought I was helping but no. I now only get abuse from him and I don’t get to see his son either. Why should I have to live with this? Why should my husband (not the father of my children) have to live with it? It’s only a matter of time before he gives up too. what did I do to deserve this?