pain

This world…….this life ….this day …people believe they Know pain….the truth is no one can describe pain…its not a word every individual can answer…. The word pain can only be described by you….you yourself can explain what it is you think pain is…teenagers believe that every problem is suicidal and what their going through is so bad it can only be cured by death……there friends may think they know what’s wrong and tell them stop its okay …they love u …stop hurting and talk to me….and for some that will change there feelings ….people who do accept the comments made by their friends just means the pain they felt was just overreacting….but us few know words are just words….they cannot help you…..when a person posts how their life sucks and their friends give them comfort ..they don’t realize that there getting something others don’t …the outcast….the truly broken….the painful hearts …..all I ever wanted was someone to love….I know I am too young to understand love.. which is why I want to know so bad….I don’t go for looks I go for someone who I can relate to ….laugh together…. Just smile just looking at each other….tell her she’s the most precious thing in the universe…. To have her understand that in my eyes she’s the worlds most beautiful girl and that saying I’m the luckiest guy in the world to have her would be a understatement….. But love does not want any part of me… I fail and fail …..lose and lost…..when I like a girl its not because of her..its just the way she moves and just does things…….that is a small pain in my heart compared to all the pain and suffering I go through everyday…..my messed up joints all over my body…my constantly hurting back…and the loneliness I feel…..I KNOW for a fact someone else has it worse but in a scale on 1-10 of miserly the injury’s I have and the lost of love ones..love itself and  not to forget the loneliness I feel 9 because there will always be a 10 somewhere latter and that 10 will become 11 ….we humans will suffer so much …some more than others ………………….everyday I think of dying ….and I will continue to think of death until my thoughts become reality